The Next Day

The next day I had to go to all of my teachers and tell them that I did not get my homework done due to family issues. Only one teacher cared enough to ask me if I wanted to talk about it. I was trying so hard to fight back the tears. If it wasn't bad enough having a step sister and cousin in my class, I had to have step mother issues. I told my teacher, Mrs. Wagner, what was going on. Needless to say, every single moring until I moved out I was in Mrs. Wagner's room crying about something that had happened because of Ree.

Sophmore year BIG problems

Not only was Ree my step mom, and the mother of who was in competition with, but she was also the Freshman Volleyball coach. Let just say that Volleyball was not my strongest sport. As a sophmore, I played on the Freshman team. I was voted team captin because I really helped those Freshman with what they needed to know. In the middle of the year, I was moved up to JV because a girl got hurt. The was a weekend when the Freshman had a tournement and the JV didn't. I asked the varsity coach, who I had for a softball coach or three years, if I need to go with the Freshman. He said "yes."

Ree got pissed. Super mad. She thought that I should have asked her. That night I my dad took me up to the Preschool, where she worked, to try to solve this. I really did not think it was that big of a deal that I didn't ask her. Honestly it didn't even cross my mind. I didn't get any of my homework done that night because I had to have an intense conversation with many tear with her. I really didn't mean to undermind her or anything, for one I was a sophmore in high school, two I was used to going to the head coach because that is what I always did for softball.

Competition

It was cool at first having my best friend be my step sister, but then it got to be a little smoothering. Cristy and I were in the same grade, had the same friends, played the same sports, had the same class, lived in the same house. Lets just say we were as close of friends as were once were. It alway felt like I was always competing with her in those areas. It was either her or Katie I was competing with.Katie is my cousin on my dad's side. We were the best of cousins. Once again, were had the same friends, the same classes, we look similar. People were always getting us confused.

I just wanted to be myself and not have to feel like I was competing. I didn't get that until I went to college. I completely became a turtle. I did not hang out with my friends on the weekends because I knew that I would be with either Cristy or Katie. I got a job and had to work most weekends.

Dad getting remarried

After my 8th grade year before my freshman year in high school, my dad had asked us kids if would be alright if him and Ree got married. Inside something did not feel right, but my dad was convinced that God had told him that this was the right thing to do. Plus, who was I to stand in a grown mans happiness. Cristy and became step sisters.

Dad's Seeing Ree

My dad started to see Ree when I was in 7th grade, I think. My dad was always concerned about the best interest of us kids. He always asked us it was okay that he started seeing people. Ree was a women who he went on a few dates in high school. She has a daughter Cristy that was in the same grade as me. We were actually best friends. It was kinda fun at first, but I only got worse. My dad had Ree convinced that my mother was a bad mother, that she need to be our mother. It was trouble from there.

Washington D.C. Trip

Oh the joy of riding on a bus full of girls for 24hrs straight. We took two separate buses, one boys one girls. I slept about 85% of the trip. I got really at sleeping on buses since that is what we rode on in Europe. We toured Gettysburg, and Washington D.C. Spending time in the white house, the monuments, and museums. It was a great time, something fun that every school shoud do.

Grandma Passes

In 1999, my grandmother passes away. My grandma was on life support. The night before she pass I remember crying and praying to God that I did not want grandma to suffer any more. I didn't want her to be in pain and so I told him that if it was his time to take her away from me. The next day I went to the hospital to visit her and they took her off life support. I cried and cried I didn't want to say good bye. I didn't want to lose my favorite person in the world. I had to go back to school and hours after I left she passed.

She was the best grandma anyone could ask for. She let us stay over she would make us popcorn and put melted butter on it. She would play games with me and would let me win. I would play at her house while she would watch her soaps. Grandma would take care of me when I was to stay home alone. I would get scared, in the dark I would sprint to my house and Grandma would feed me.

I miss my grandma very much. If there were one person that I could bring back for the dead it would be her. I wish she were around when I was in high school. I think that she would have been the one that I would talk too. Sometimes I get really sad just thinking about her. I love you Grandma! See you in heaven.

Starting 8th grade

When I got back it was only a few weeks until school started back up again. I was excited for school to begin again. I had not seen my friends all summer. I was finally some what getting used to life. I was in eighth grade, which was a big year. It was the year where we got to go to Washington D.C. It was kinda weird though coming home to having my mom getting remarried. Life was going to start changing more from here on out.

Back to reality

I did not want the summer to end. I didn't want to leave my knew friends. I didn't want to leave Europe or God. I for the first time in my life I knew that God was there with me and everything was going to be okay. I had this peace. I could be myself, didn't have parents to worry about nothing life was great. I didn't want to go back to this unhappy life where I had to choose.

Sad day in July

There was a day in July while I was in Europe, that was the day when my mom got remarried. I wasn't upset because I was missing the wedding. I was upset for the fact that it was official that my parents would no longer be together. I would return home from Europe my mom would no longer be living in her apartment. She would be living with another man. It was probably a good think that I had moved to my dad earlier that year. I couldn't bare the thought of not living in my home that I had lived in for some many years.

Favorite Attractions

When I was in Europe, I had to make sure that in every country that I went to I had to have the ice cream. Scotland hand the most amazing vanilla ice cream. Solvokia had the best banana flavored ice cream. The skittles in Scotland were the best Skittles that I have ever had. Here in the US you eat a bunch of skittle you get a sugaray wad of saliva in my mouth. The skittles in Scotland, I could eat the whole package and none of that. It was amazing. My favorite candy bar that I had in Europe was in England. It is called the Lion Bar. Wafer, carmel, chocolate, Rice krispies YUMMM!

Switzerland and England were my favorite countires. I loved the mountains, the fresh water springs, and the fresh air. Englands land, the acsents, I don't know really I just loved it there.